I caught myself being cynical

cynicismWhoa! Where did THAT come from?

I’ve always wanted to be an example of optimism. But recently, I showed cynicism instead.

Old people tend to be grumpy because they have hit so many bumps in the road. Simply by the sum of years, they’ve had more opportunities to scrape up with imperfect people. (I was trying to be friendly with the sample server at Costco, but the cantankerous oldster retorted rudely and shoved my hand away when I went for a sample.)

I don’t want to grow bitter, despite the accumulation of hurts suffered in my life. In spite of the disillusions, the disappointments, the betrayals.

There’s a lady in our church in Utah who’s husband cheated on her and left her. She’s as joyful as can be. I want to be like here.

God, restore youthfulness to be heart. Give me faith in others. Help me splurge forgiveness everywhere I go. Rid me of cynicism!

7 responses to “I caught myself being cynical

  1. Ah it’s so easy to be cynical…even for the young!

    • When I was younger, there was a time when I was tempted to put on a cynical front. The cynical guys seemed so sophisticated. Though I dabbled with this, ultimately I rejected it because it was just negativity. As I have grown older, I have noticed the bruises-in-the-road as a factor of years lived. But what got me this time was probably a bunch of cynical people around me and being stressed out.

  2. Oh, you’re being too hard on yourself. You’re human. You had a moment. And now it’s over. You’re never going to become cynical or bitter because it’s not WHO you are completely, it was just a moment.

    I read somewhere a doctor who said that older people tend to fall and break their hip because they believe they’ve gotten older and will fall and break their hip, but not because being old makes you more prone to falling and breaking your hip – aaah, the journal I read sounded to much better. The point of course, was to becareful what you believe because you may indeed become it. And that can be a good thing and a bad thing…. So, no worries. don’t think about being cynical at all —

  3. Don’t ask god. You can do it and be proud of yourself for being the person you aim to be. Hopeing it is half the work, now make it happen! 🙂

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